I didn’t feel lukewarm till I noticed that I was in lukewarm water. Now I really feel cold cos I noticed that I’m in lukewarm water.
No feedback blog post of the last week. My private was too busy to post it. This is not a substitution but I wrote my feeling of these days.
Reason why I wrote my feeling is a fateful encounter in this week with a men who saw far ahead of the way I’m walking.
Conversation with him, atmosphere aroud him, what he asking. All of these things made me inspired.
On my way home, I can’t stop feel like this.
“I’m in lukewarm water.”
There were lot more chance I didn’t try. I’m afraiding failure. I’m running away from failure and looking for a safety way. In addition, I didn’t learn from failure to cast my eyes from the facts.
Then I acted like not feel any fear.
In my future, I’m going to face tons of walls. Walls I’ve never seen, unsighted. Walls I didn’t see ever.
This is just what I want. I started by myslef to look far ahead of this way. However I’ve closed my eyes with fear.
Can I breakthrough when I hit the wall? Can I learn from it? Can I walk on?
I still have qualms although I’ve noticed that I kept closing my eyes.
However I can’t stop here. Finally I can face the facts. What should I do, what can I do? That’s the thing.
Yes I already know the answer. Just do it. There is no choice.
I remembered one thing. The conversation with my cousin when I was a child.
Me: “I wanna run faster but I can’t run really hard.”
Cousin: “It’s just mean you’re slow runner, aren’t you?”
Got an impact I was. And that was the moment I could recognized I’m a slow runner. I thought I can run faster if I run really hard till this time.
Nothing will happen if I wait for I can do something really hard. Just do it with all my power. Just fail with all my power. Then learn from it with all pain to never forget it.
Go straight to the wall closest to me from here lukewarm water for that purpose.
I know the words “Failure breeds success” or “Learn by mistake”, but I didn’t understand at all.
I’ll fail from now.
Lot’s of people supporting me. It’s encouraging me all the time. I’m sorry I couldn’t work well with that brave. Please keep cheering me.